Have you ever been on top of a mountain, looked around, and just felt small?
Or have you ever looked up at the stars at night and tried to count them and get baffled at just how many there are?
All the craziness of COVID-19 has made me feel something similar. I tend to get wrapped up in the busyness of life- school, work, friends. To be honest, I forget that the world doesn’t revolve around me, that school isn’t the end of the world and there are bigger issues out there. With schools and businesses closing, being ordered to stay home, not being able to see friends and family, I am reminded that I am one mere human to our great God. The world doesn’t revolve around me. I am not invincible. I am not in control, no matter how hard I try to be.
Job 26:7-14 says, “God stretches the northern sky over empty space and hangs the earth on nothing. He wraps the rain in his thick clouds, and the clouds don’t burst with the weight. He covers the face of the moon, shrouding it with his clouds. He created the horizon when he separated the waters: he set the boundary between day and night. The foundations of heaven tremble; they shudder at his rebuke. By his power the sea grew calm. By his skill he crushed the great sea monster. His Spirit made the heavens beautiful, and his power pierced the gliding serpent. These are just the beginning of all that he does, merely a whisper of his power. Who, then, can comprehend the thunder of his power?”
When I get so caught up in my own life, I make myself my own god. And, I’m not good at being God. The past few weeks I have been able to slow down and realize how much I have tried to do things on my own, how much control I thought I had.
It’s like America thought it was invincible, too. I would have never thought schools and businesses would close for months. I would have never thought that we would be ordered to stay home. But here we are. And we are alright! Maybe all those things weren’t as important as we thought. Maybe we aren’t as important as we like to think we are.
Thankfully, God is in control. And even in a time that seems scary, He knows better than we do. “Who, then, can comprehend the thunder of His power?” I don’t have the answers, I don’t know why COVID-19 is happening. But perhaps that’s exactly what I needed reminding of. That I don’t know, and I wasn’t meant to know, because I am not God.
This week slow down and remember who is in control. Let Him be in control. He is good at being God and we can trust Him.
Middle School Intern